Wah, I woke up from a phonecall,
who was that person who woke me up ah,
haiyo, my sleep leh!
just kidding lah,
anw, itunes is still against me >=(
I very nice to bully is it?!
Was like trying to fix it for 2 hours?!
Then make me late for meeting, bleah.
Hahas, the meeting at ps,
with my secretary, kang le and worship leaders,
paiseh lah,
I told them not to be late,
then I myself was late for 20 minutes,
hahas, very ass horrrrrrrr.
Sorry lah,
make a public apology,
hahas, thanks to itunes lah >=(
Anw, ate at yoshi,
hahas, and off to our favourite place, MOS!
But it was full -.-
so off to burger wang [king]
bleah, those two group leaders ah,
very slack,
grouping people halfway, can go carrefour,
and buy things -.-
After our meeting,
went window shopping,
hahas, me, rachael and shijun,
all in casual clothes, t-shirt and shorts,
window shopping in ps,
so unglam! LOL!
Oh oh, I saw the SAJC person again,
hah! My stalker, just kidding lah,
just find it rather weird,
being seeing that guy for a lot of time already,
first on the mrt, he was opposite me,
two times at kovan, fourth time ytd, with weikee,
fifth time, TODAY!
HAHAS! So weird,
I think I noticed him cause the first time I saw him,
he was in SA uniform, LOL!
Hee, I'm going to go there, bleah!
Did a lot of silly things,
esp in spotlight,
AND WE SAW EDMUND CHEN!
So cool right,
but he still looks the same on tv and in real life,
face red red de, lol,
claire, you should stop being mean.
Anw, that spastic pair bullied me,
make me dress up as a witch and put silly things on me lah >=(
LOL! Too bad we didn't bring camera XD
Humph, I'm always being bullied,
itunes, ah pek, abuser, my comm members, C13,
all bully me, BOOHOO!
I want to hug my pillow,
okay, that is....irrelevant.
And I don't want to pay $23 for clique jersey,
even if it is $21, I was don't want to pay,
damn ex leh, might as well,
buy some jersey and write your name right?!
Bleah >=(
And I still haven't do CSSP proposal,
nvm, still got weikee's group,
hahas, have I mentioned that I loved sianching lots?
Nvm, I shall say it again, I love sianching,
cause she sent me her proposal for reference <33
Momo: Hahas, I just put it there only what, MORON! =D
remember to tag more hor XD
Pingsee: Hello, pig XD My ex english partner, gonna miss visiting you in 2B1 <3
Raf: YEAH! Remember my christmas present =D
Yu hui: Fine lah, secretary, made a public apology liao,
me lah, I told you not to be late then late,
ya lah, my bad lah =D
Sianching: Yeah, 5 minutes, but that time I was cold and freezing,
after walking for so long what,
and kim's house the water i WARM! LOL!
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I'm tired of my life,
my smiles are fake,
I pretend to laugh,
act as if everything is okay,
everything is going fine,
running away from reality,
but, when I'm alone,
the tears just start to roll down,
every night, I lie on my bed,
only falling asleep when my poillow is wet,
when I'm alone,
reality starts to come after me,
demanding me to face it.
I didn't tell anybody what happened,
except you Lord, except you,
take away the pain, please,
it's like a routine for me to smile and laugh everyday,
it's like telling everyone everything's okay,
telling myself, that things are fine,
faking a smile just for pride,
I hate crying in front of people.
You know that daddy,
only you know what are the shit things going on,
because I told you, you only,
help me, I seem to be falling from your grace.
I can't stand it anymore,
I'm ready to burst,
it sucks, big time.
You know I don't like to show my weak side,
but I admit now,
I need you, daddy, really,
I lower my pride in front of you,
I need your grace, mercy, love,
help me, I'm hurting so so much inside,
I long for it to end.
I wake up everyday,
to see the world crushing down on me.
I seem to disappoint you again and again,
you still died on the cross for me.
Those stupid lies 'I'm okay, I'm fine, I'm happy'
Those big and fake smiles =D
they seriously sucks.
I don't like to be alone,
esp at night, when everybody is sleeping,
I'll be looking up at the wooden board,
tears will start rolling down,
take away the pain, the hurt, please,
I really want to smile a real smile again.
I don't want to live a stupid lie anymore.
I know I have many flaws,
but that's how you made me,
I'm trying hard to be a better person.
Hey,
I won't betray my own values,
I'll be loyal to myself,
so stop telling me it's okay,
stop telling me you can always end it,
I don't want to be that idiot who is cause.
She is a nice person, really,
always helping me, teaching me,
how can you do that.
I've decide to put it behind me,
yeah, I'll remember those times spent,
be it walking on the beach, or just spending time together.
Whenever I listen to the song,
I'll be tempted,
yeah, so I'm trying to delete it from my ipod,
but itunes don't wanna cooperate,
but I'll still be loyal to my own values.
The star that shines the brightest?
Yeah, right.
Say goodbye, walk away,
you know I won't stay.
